Well, I guess this really has been building for over two years now, but I am at that point where 'enough really is enough'!
I am exhausted, emotionally and physically. I try to immerse myself in my art play as a distraction, but events over the past few weeks have tipped me over the edge.
I do try to keep my blog positive and upbeat, but I guess I have decided that those who read this may be able to offer words of advice or at least be a little understanding that I do have pressures in my personal life. I suppose I am asking for a little patience as I attempt to sort through this all.
I have a 15 year old daughter.
I try to understand that she is going through emotional turmoil too, but sometimes it is hard.
I am literally at breaking point and have to try and consider the needs of ALL my children, my marriage, my relationship with others, my business, the retreat...
I am almost in tears I as I write this.
I feel a heaviness in my chest, the emotional drain a physical thing.
I am tired.
I do understand that I have an obligation to all of you. I am trying my very best to meet the demands of all my delegates at the retreat. If I have not answered your emails of late, I most sincerely apologise and I am working hard on getting this done.
If I have made a demand from anyone, consciously or unconsciously, I am sorry.
If I have depressed you with this post, I truly, truly apologise. I do not mean to offend or upset anyone.
I think it is time to sign off and go outside and within with my thoughts.
Later, I will post on a happier note.