Saturday, March 8, 2008

Enough is a enough!

Well, I guess this really has been building for over two years now, but I am at that point where 'enough really is enough'!
I am exhausted, emotionally and physically. I try to immerse myself in my art play as a distraction, but events over the past few weeks have tipped me over the edge.
I do try to keep my blog positive and upbeat, but I guess I have decided that those who read this may be able to offer words of advice or at least be a little understanding that I do have pressures in my personal life. I suppose I am asking for a little patience as I attempt to sort through this all.
I have a 15 year old daughter.
I try to understand that she is going through emotional turmoil too, but sometimes it is hard.
I am literally at breaking point and have to try and consider the needs of ALL my children, my marriage, my relationship with others, my business, the retreat...
I am almost in tears I as I write this.
I feel a heaviness in my chest, the emotional drain a physical thing.
I am tired.
I do understand that I have an obligation to all of you. I am trying my very best to meet the demands of all my delegates at the retreat. If I have not answered your emails of late, I most sincerely apologise and I am working hard on getting this done.
If I have made a demand from anyone, consciously or unconsciously, I am sorry.
If I have depressed you with this post, I truly, truly apologise. I do not mean to offend or upset anyone.
I think it is time to sign off and go outside and within with my thoughts.
Later, I will post on a happier note.
Promise.

13 comments:

Judy said...

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Sam Marshall said...

Hi Jo,
I know it must be so hard with all the millions of things you have to do. Being a mum of a teenager is so testing at times.(My girl has just turned 13).
I wish you all the best and you're in my thoughts.;)

Ursula Clamer said...

Thinking of you and wishing you well. Ux

Krissie said...

((((((((((((hugs))))))))))from the other side of the city.... you poor thing, I have three DD's and I Know how hard it is sometimes...nuff said..so hugs and good thoughts your way. Take care of yourself lots of rest and somehow...we all get thru it... wishing you well.

Krissie said...

((((((((((((hugs))))))))))from the other side of the city.... you poor thing, I have three DD's and I Know how hard it is sometimes...nuff said..so hugs and good thoughts your way. Take care of yourself lots of rest and somehow...we all get thru it... wishing you well.

Krissie said...

sorry - I dont know what happened...my post came up twice unintentionally.

Megan P said...

Jo - hoping the weekend has moved you to a better mental and physical place.
warm thoughts - and remember, we all do the best we can at any point in time - we cannot do anymore.
Mx

Corrine said...

Hi Jo,
Don't children have impeccable timing? I can't offer advise without knowing the problem, but I can say you aren't alone, and most teenagers turn out just fine, even the rebels.
All the best

Ro Bruhn said...

Take a deep breathe and a step back Jo, I always find writing it all down on paper helps, it gets it out of your head, then when you've recovered, burn it. Don't forget we're all behind you.
Big hug
Ro
xo

mandy said...

I can't even imagine what your going through, but you will get through it.
you have already made the first step.......

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Jo Wholohan said...

hope things get better in your life soon jo, not nice to be pulled in different directions
take care xx

Ev said...

Jo, I hope things have improved. I have the dreaded 13 year old, though not as bad as some of her friends it is very tiring and trying at times. Try to get hold of the book Princess Bitchface Syndrome, it will have you laughing and nodding at some of the insights to the alien that our girls become. I got mine from Big W so it is readily available, I can provide more details if you need me to - just ping me an email. (((Hugs)))